One of the main reasons why I created this new account was because I felt like my previous account was too immature; the art I uploaded were mostly unfinished, uncolored etc. I also wanted to get away from my old alias for the same reason.

Originally, I wanted to make my new account name something that contained my name in it; but having the most common Korean last name made it very difficult. I tried a variety of "tkim" "theresakim" "kimt" "TK" "tisakim" etc and they were all taken. The best part being that none of those names had any art uploaded in their galleries, or had been logged into for years and what have you.

I'm also torn between wanting to be called Terri (which has been an informal nickname for me since the 6th grade), or by my legal name Theresa (which I'm only called by co-workers, schoolmates, bankers and other formal figures).

So, I created this account and uploaded all my traditional medium pieces. Everything in this gallery is non-cartoon and very different from what I had in my previous one. However, looking back into the gallery now, I feel like something is missing. Real bad. Where are all my cartoons?! All my game characters and silly things. I thought to myself, wow, I feel like I'm missing... ME, in this gallery.

That is something I always seem to struggle with; being more solid in who I am and what I want. I do not change too much as a person. I don't go through "phases" of styles, likes, dislikes or anything to that extreme. It's more like... I don't feel like a complete individual; more like just another boring person. I draw mostly fanarts, I don't have an original "character" or cartoon character of me. Heck, I don't even have an animal, a symbol, a color or a theme that represents me. I know many artists have some neat trendy icon that is "them". Whether it's roses, black panthers, skulls, horns, stars, tigers, dragons, whatever. Nothing like that ever really stood out for me.

My art style is so different when I'm drawing cartoons vs when I'm painting or doing some other form of traditional media. I feel more "talented" with my traditional pieces; like that's what I'm good at. My cartoons and fanarts feel much happier even though the quality is lacking in comparison. For some reason, I can't seem to draw certain things as cartoons, but I could draw them in still-life.

I should just go on one of those "finding myself" quests. That'd be a big help!